Uncomfortable

today i will tell a real story.

My brother used to hit me.

I say ‘used to’ because we do not see each other much anymore.

i moved away.

not because of him, but because I went to study.

he never got the chance, for all the drugs and violence.

It got okay, then mum had a stroke, and the lovely girlfriend he had got hit.

as it goes.

I wish he didn’t – i thought he got better

but i don’t know why

he’s never gotten better.

i still hope he does.

i hope i do.

manique.

i used to do drugs.

i say ‘used to’ because i don’t see them anymore.

i moved away

not because of the drugs, but because i was capable of more

but i’m failing

i still don’t need the drugs, though,

they are still gone

i hope they stay that way

i can handle all the things.

even Mickey.

1. Narration

As the sort of preface for the re-invention of my personal blog, I would like to explain its narrative style.

It does not exist – I am trying to find a style that I thought I had already developed, so, this blog will be ever-changing and experimental. It probably will not be very entertaining.

This is not meant to be a cohesive site for information but external evidence and reference for personal hope and inspiration for passion and will to live.

Everything from here on out is probably an in-the-moment expression with a severe lack of context.

enjoy.